Why aren't you talking to me i know about the baby and i miss you both i have trouble walking let alone driving

Received today at 13.35

I haven't replied yet, I don't think I have the strength just yet, I know I must be nice to him, and it's not the right moment just yet.

This is what I want to tell him..that I'm totally peed off he let us down on Christmas Day - again. That somehow I knew he wouldn't have come beforehand and so his call on Xmas day just acted as a confirmation of my thoughts.
I'm so angry with him for texting my brother that he never wanted to see him or his family again. Us kids have learnt to stick together and look out for each other so it was if I had been sent that text. I know he was probably drunk at the time but I can't forgive him for it.
I'm sick of his lies which he still wants me to believe, even when we speak (which we will) it will all be lies.

I could be very nasty and that's why I'm waiting before I speak to him. He's still my dad and I love him for all his faults and failures.
If it was any other person in my life, I would ignore the text completely and get on with my life, or call up and have a shouting match but it's dad and I don't want to do that.
I shall speak to my brothers and call him tomorrow after my scan where hopefully I will get the confirmation that this miscarriage is complete and I can move on to the next chapter in my life.
I'd like the old Denis back. He was lovely and I was proud of him