I had such fun choosing them and it's great as I have a constant idea of what's going on.
I watched the documentary on Animals in the Womb last night and was fascinated. Can you believe a mother elephant carries her baby for 22 months? Amazing. I saw a doc. on elephants earlier this autumn and one mother miscarried her baby, it was heartbreaking to see her try her hardest to make the little one live. I believe they and dolphins are as intelligent (if not more) than us.

My son called me last night, both him and his sister are due to arrive on Sunday and are dead worried about the fog as the Italian media have been really going to town on it. I cannot wait to see them and will shift the fog myself if needs be.

I have now invited Denis, my dad, twice over for Christmas Day, both times I think he was drunk and forgot, I refused to invite him a third time and told the brothers to get on the case. Anyway he called me, sober, last night and I hope he comes down. I love him dearly but cannot stand it when he gets drunk and I find I can't talk to him either as he tends to lie.

My younger brother has asked if he can bring his new girlfriend, Alana with him. Of course he can! I adore him and would so like to see him in a happy relationship, he broke with his girlfriend of 5 yrs a year ago and has been enjoying himself since (maybe a little too much?)

So that will bring us up to 10! We're going for the traditional feast, turkey and trimmings followed by Christmas pud and brandy butter. Aaahhhhh! I love it, must be my favourite meal of the year.

Alana by the way is from the Cech republic so will add a very interesting slant to our day. Prague here I come LOL

Happy Christmas everyone, just in case I don't get back on in time. May Santa bring all your desires. I have mine so anything else is an extra.
Much love mari

AS the title says, we've finally done it and today I am officially 4 weeks and 4 days pregnant. Yaaayyyy!
Which means baby is not more than an apple pip but working very hard and sorting out all his cells in the right order and I am feeling over the moon, incredibly nauseous and dog tired.
Not that I'm complaining, actually it's nice feeling like that as it reminds me constantly of what's happening inside.
We tested last Saturday morning two days before I was due as we had a party that night and I needed to know if I could drink or not. And it came up straight away, so I am now the official taximuch to my partner's delight!
We told the family at the pre christmas get together on Sunday and they are so happy for us. It is very early days but they know we've been trying since Oct and we just hope this little one goes the whole 36 weeks left.
YOu may remember me mentioning earlier in the year my worry for Wendy my sister in law who suffers from PCOS, I ahve kept her in the picture these last few months so she was aware we were trying and she is also very happy too.
We're also very lucky considering my age (40) as it's seen as over the hill in this department.
So I raise my glass to all bloggers and wish you all a very happy Christmas and New Year, I have received my gift and I hope Santa brings you yours
xx

Yes, on both boards I write on there have been two women on the +35 board who have announced they're pregnant and plenty on the other boards too.
Now I am very happy for these ladies and wish them wonderful pregnancies ahead but it does make me feel as if I'm slacking behind, not running fast enough so to speak.
Remember as a kid doing sports day? I never won the race and although never last was never up the front. Now I have that same impression again.
I'm trying to not think about it but it's not really working as it is such a priority in my life.
It's so frustrating, many things in life you can 'make' work for you, you can push and control things to a huge extent but when it comes to babymaking there is zero control.
You can take your daily temps, watch your body closely for signs. BUT then it's all down to catching the egg at the right moment ( not a huge window as commonly believed) and then praying it can safely implant itself.
Then you have an agonising 12 weeks praying the egg and it's swimmer were good ones, because if they're not. Nature says goodbye baby and you're bcak to square one.
And here comes my motto 'what will be will be'
ciao for now

yes, days - weeks pass with no entry. I'm playing around in various forums but nor writing.
I seem to have lost all enthusiasm for this blog these days.
maybe beccauuse I don't have a specific direction or know where I want this to go.
I spending my time getting ready for Christmas, pressies, tree, baubles and the sort adn am again waiting to see if we have any luck this month.
It's stqarting to wear me down a bit to be honest and sometimes I contemplate giving up but hey. I can't.
HOpefully I'll be back sono in a better frame of mind.